day 26

well.

i really haven't been feeling much from God these past couple of days.

i have been praying about alot of stuff, and instead of getting answers i am getting silence.

i know that God sometimes chooses to answer us in the form of silence, but these issues i have been praying about have been on my "prayer list" for quite a while, and still no answer.

i am getting rather frustrated because i feel that i have been striving to live for God as best as i can, and i keep falling so short of everything that it is terribly hard to get back up, much less go on.

my life verse is romans 8:28, and i have seen God work through those words in my life way too much to doubt them, but it is really hard right now...i don't see how things could work out for good...i guess i will just keep praying and trusting God, though i feel as if i am running headlong through a forest that is not only pitch black, but i have a blindfold and earplugs on and i cannot take them off.

day 18

so i am terrible at keeping a day-to-day journal...i usually only post when something significant happens, and nothing super significant has really happened since my last post...

to start off, last sunday i was offered a (tenative) full-time job through my church for after i graduate university(in december). it is a marketing postition for a non-profit ministry that was started by my church to help inner-city kids in all different kind of ways...i was really blessed by this, because i had been really wondering what i was going to do with a BA in Marketing, considering i don't really feel called to have a big "career" in the business world...i just basically want to serve God in whatever way i can...

another (ironic) surprise was that i have misplaced my Surprise Me God! book!!! i cannot find it anywhere, but then i figured that i don't necessarily need the book to keep asking God to surprise me. i have continued to pray and trust God and try not to expect things to happen...

i definitely know that since october started, God has shaken my little world up alot more than i thought he would, and it has pretty much been a good thing...of course it would be, for whatever else does God want for me but good things?

i suppose that is all for now...hopefully i will keep up with this a bit more, but i am not promising anything...

manda

surprise me god! day five.

so this has been an interesting week so far...i have committed myself to this 30-day experiment, and so far it has been rather surprising...(like it shouldn't be? what?)

i have asked God to surprise me every day now, and he has. it has not been in ways that i would have expected, but then a surprise is something you don't expect...(go figure!)

these surprises have been little things in my day-to-day life, whether it be a conversation with a friend, a phone call, or my band's show this last week (and what followed was more of a big surprise than a little one)

in short, God has revealed much more of himself to me in these past five days than in the past few months...i am really excited to see where these next twenty-five days will lead, but i know for sure that whatever comes to pass will be more exciting and wonderful than i could imagine...